Essays of an apostate

Alot say that life’s purpose is the afterlife, and that everything here is in essence preparation, essentially claiming that life is a school, where adherence to supposed ‘moral’ behavior pays off later. That’s not to say that those who believe in the afterlife, or the divinity of God see no purpose in life. Most people seek to enjoy what they can, and do what they must. To live within the wake of the future, and to never travel outside of that is the life most people lead. Most people become a statistic, alot beg the question of whether there is a point to the drudgery of everyday life, why the world had been constructed in this way by whatever means, why everything major in the past contributes to the future, why what I do now will pay off in the long run, why I must adopt routine now only to follow a routine later.

Those who break the mold lead more interesting lives. Those who become famous, have cult followings, have an untapped source of knowledge or talent yet to be revealed, those are the people with purpose. Doctors, engineers, labourers, lawyers. I am grateful for these people, yet I see no interest in that work. They all contribute, they all help me directly or indirectly, but at the same time they are expendable, with regards to the economics of human life. These people perform a function, a base upon which the people who contribute on a misty yet broader scope stand. Those who write and appeal to intellect, who can tap that buried source, those are the people who lead interesting lives. That’s the sort of purpose I see. Volumes of writing, chronicling thought – The people who observe, provide commentary on and draw inspiration and influence from the base.

That’s not to say that they are any better. To hark back to the title, purpose. Everyone, even as mundane as the job or work, those constrained through lack of opportunity, everyone has their own purpose. Most have different purposes, created within there own minds. I hold to the purpose of what I see and have learned or read of, not understand yes, but thats no reason to question what is learned. People might question how I can see a purpose without some believing in some greater intellect greater than all. I don’t see a purpose in life itself, it is just an occurrence in nature like the birth of anything else. That’s not to deny the fact that I myself have my own purpose. I look up to an ambition like everyone else, I don’t see a need to abandon that purpose to conform to the rigidity of institutions which sanctifies human selfishness and the egotism of people. Someone who needs that institution to add weight to their own purpose have a belief which is questionable. They live in a fools paradise.